Beirut: When a woman is expected to be the perfect leader and nurturer both at home and work, without societal support or a legal framework that values their labour, it can be a hard pill to swallow.
Amani – a Lebanese woman in her thirties – is a mother of two, and a passionate French language teacher, who feels as though she’s racing against herself just to survive.
Stereotypes about women in the workforce are abundant and varied. Many teachers, predominantly female, are lauded and admired, despite low pay and the demanding nature of the job. Furthermore, female educators are trapped in a web of expectations, similar to those of a mother.
Then you have the office worker. She’s in formal attire, hair elegantly coiffed or kept short and chic, with a determined (if not piercing) gaze, armed with a trusty laptop, persuasive presentations, and a productive team.
Finally, you have the less pervasive female leaders and managers (sometimes known as the "girl boss"). The media portrays such women as a necessary component of fourth-wave feminism, where social media platforms are considered the primary pulpit for activism.
With all these cookie-cutter moulds, the personal ambitions of working women and their burning desire to reach each of their distinct aspirations, are seen as secondary at best.
This societal “straitjacket,” affecting the lifestyle choices of not only mothers but fathers as well, doubles as a life jacket, needed to survive the ongoing economic crisis, which befell Lebanon in the fall of 2019. Thousands of Lebanese families can't live with it and can't live without it.
But it's dangerous to ignore what a mother gains as an individual, beyond her household duties, personal relationships, or children.
Who is responsible for evaluating the success of a mother who works outside the home versus one who does not? Furthermore, how does the current feminist movement impact a mother's career choices?
Breaking the status quo
From a distance, mum-of-two Amani’s perspective on work doesn't seem so bleak. She sees it as a breath of fresh air. Stepping out of her home, engaging with people, and leaving an impact on her students, all amidst the backdrop of challenging economic times, are positive achievements that incentivise many working mothers.
However, mounting demands cast a heavy burden.
“When society insists that I play the role of leader and pioneer in every conceivable field and type of relationship – as a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a worker, a friend – I find myself entangled in a constant struggle to meet these expectations. Rather than feeling self-fulfilled, I often discover I am in a race against myself,” Amani says.