Musa al-Shami, hailing from the southern town of Jarjoua, spoke candidly about the state of the country in a two-minute and seventeen-second audio message that he sent to his friend, Ali, moments before committing suicide.
Musa bid farewell to the world without letting us hear the fatal gunshot that ended his life. He seemed to be in a hurry to find peace and escape the daily humiliation he lived with.
In his farewell message to his friend, Musa expressed his deep love for his wife, Duaa, but explained that he could no longer bear the heavy burden of life. He sought Ali’s forgiveness and asked that no one speak ill of him — entrusting Ali with the safety and well-being of his children.
Following the tragedy, Muhammad al-Shami, Musa’s cousin, penned an article titled, “Why did my cousin Musa al-Shami commit suicide?” and posted it on Asas Media’s website. The article explained that Musa’s immediate circle was unaware of his heartache and feelings of hopelessness, explaining that Musa had never confided in his family or friends.
No avenue to express dissent
Muhammad al-Shami went on to explain that while Lebanese often voice their discontent and frustration against ruling authorities through protests —as evidenced by the 17 October Revolution, other citizens who live in southern Lebanon feel stifled.
In this part of the country — a stronghold of Hezbollah — dissent is regarded as a crime, and dissenters are labelled “traitors,” besieged by partisan politics, threatened by rulers, and intimidated by party leaders.
Musa found himself at a crossroads, forced to choose between a life of humiliation and suicide. He ended his strife by choosing the latter.
Unfortunately, Musa’s suicide is not an isolated incident. Several others have also taken their own lives: Hussein Mroueh from Zararia, Muhammad Ibrahim from Wardaniyeh, and Ali Mashhour Abu Hamdan from Bekaa.
The incidents demonstrate the sad state of affairs of the country where suicide is increasingly becoming a desperate response to a systemic and all-encompassing injustice. This leaves individuals with no avenue to express dissent — stripping them of their dignity, freedom, and sense of self-worth.